wonderful.colours.of.gina

A new chapter has begun

2010-07-16T16:20:00.002+08:00

一个人的时候, 在陌生的街头, 抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空,
I know I know, 地球另一端有你陪我
谢谢你鼓励我, 勇气是你给我, 让我迈开脚步一起往前走,
I know I know, 你是我的ok绷,
在每一个时候, 一直陪着我.

Psalm 37:23-25

2010-06-23T10:23:00.002+08:00

23 The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD, And He delights in his way
24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the LORD upholds him with His hand.
25 I have been young, and now am old; Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken, Nor his descendants begging bread.

What are you trading your life for?

2010-05-27T17:08:00.003+08:00

We often hear from people that they have been busy with their lives, and weeks after weeks, busy-ness is always on their lips.

Busy-ness, it makes me pause and ask myself this: what are you busy for?

Our life is defined by the time we had. So, what am I trading my life for?

Some people spent their lives building their career, working 8 to 5, and beyond, to establish their ambitions and at times, greed. Some spent their lives on studies, exams after exams, just to earn an entry pass to proceed to the next stage of their life.

Some spent their lives slacking, hooked on lan games, alcohol and cigarettes. Some spent their lives in regrets, never move on from their past, and always struggle with their thoughts.

Yes, career and studies are important. Leisure and entertainment are important. In fact, in life, there are so many things we want and we ought to do. But back to the very basics, what's the most important to us?

To me, the lives of others are important. For there is no un-do button to press on, and no way to buy time once it's up. I need to spend more time with my families and friends, loving them and building their lives. Why must it always be, when that person is no longer around, that we regret not loving him a little bit more?

Our purpose in life is important. We can work all we want, but are we meeting the purpose of why we existed in the first place? Are we hitting the bull's eye in every step we take? Does every decision we make bring us a little closer to our calling and destiny? Is our time spent fulfilling our destiny?

I got to spend my time wisely. How about you?

Blog with Caution!

2010-05-21T15:01:00.005+08:00

It's has been 2 long months since I last blogged. Not that I had nothing inspiring to blog about, but I'm just too occupied with life to take time off, settle myself down, and compose a proper entry.

So, what triggers me today?
After I read the blog entries from people whom I called - friends.

If you don't know me, I'm someone who loves to catch up with my friends via their blogs. I love reading their blogs because I care, and I just want to know how they think and feel.

And, if you don't know me, I'm someone who loved to be corrected or scolded in my face. One of my greatest hate in life is people who talk bad behind people's back, and worst, via their blogs.

You are most welcome to tell me straight in my face what you are upset about me, as much as I welcome you to tell me in my face what you like about me. But don't let me "read" about it in your blog because I hate the act of it. You "hope" that I will "read" about it and do something about it, but that is of no help to me, and definitely, nothing edifying to those who read it.

To me, blogging is a way to share our true thoughts and feelings, but not at the expense of others.
Personally, I always hope to use my blog to edify and encourage people. Not that life is a bed of roses, but I will always plan and think through what I should post before posting it. You will never find me posting an entry carelessly, and I hope that you too, will blog with caution.

Like me for my straight-forwardness. For you will never find a mask on my face and a knife behind your back.

Today is my day!

2010-03-23T13:21:00.009+08:00

Wow! It has been a month since I last updated my blog! I have been really busy for the past few weeks.

Today is my day and I counted myself blessed to have so many friends and relatives who shower their love and birthday wishes on me. You guys are simply the best! What's more could I ask for?

&..I have lots of gatherings with my besties throughout the week.
Jot it down for me to remember you all! :)

20 Mar - Movie at MS with Ts, Elaine, Bblee, Los and wifey &
Kite flying at Marina Barriage.
21 Mar - Family dinner & dessert at IMM with family (duh!).
22 Mar - Supper at Novena with Yun, Shan, Hao, Qiang, Davis, Oli.
23 Mar - Marche at Vivocity with Elaine and Bblee.
24 Mar - Dessert night at Bugis's Ah Chew with Joanne.

Thank you guys! You guys made my day! <3

Last but not least, I thank my God for creating me. Without Him, I'm nothing, but with Him, I'm everything.

Happy 24th birthday to me! Cheers!

我很好那么你呢?

2010-02-24T11:55:00.011+08:00

Yes, this song speaks a lot about my perspective towards love.

To love, sometimes, is to let go.
To let go, so that he can find a greater happiness.
To let go, so that he can have a better future.
To let go, so that he can be with the one he loves.
To love, is not to possess, but to set free.

Your happiness is all that matters to me.

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夏天一个人的球鞋
能不能走到我们笑闹着的海边
海风吹过你的身边
变成一种想念在我的世界盘旋

天空已经哭了几遍
我才渐渐明白
让自己了解了你的离开是爱

你 (你的微笑姿态)
还 (还是默默的存在)
在在我心里某一块

爱 (不再是我们的)
还 (还是要勇敢期待)
在

我很好那么你呢想起的我是怎样的
当初哭着分不开现在都能用微笑释怀(轻轻问候着)
我很好那么你呢离开我要比从前快乐
眼泪是记得而不哭了是懂得我们都会幸福的

天空已放晴了几遍
我才渐渐明白
让自己了解了你停止的是爱

你 (你的微笑姿态)
还 (还是默默的存在)
在在我心里某一块

爱 (不再是我们的)
还 (还是要勇敢期待)
在

我很好那么你呢想起的我是怎样的
当初哭着分不开现在都能用微笑释怀(轻轻问候着)
我很好那么你呢离开我要比从前快乐
眼泪是记得而不哭了是懂得我们都会幸福的

我很好那么你呢想起的我是怎样的
当初哭着分不开现在都能用微笑释怀(轻轻问候着)
我很好那么你呢离开我要比从前快乐
眼泪是记得而不哭了是懂得我们都会幸福的

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

2010-02-19T11:48:00.012+08:00

Simply love this song! I love the way how Young, Adam pen down these lovely pictures in his mind into words. And a special thanks to the lady who does the motion video on youtube. Your video is simply lovely as the scenes you made matches the lyrics perfectly! \m/

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The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear

Oh darling, I wish you were here

同一個遺憾 - 潘瑋柏 ft. 紀佳松

2010-02-18T10:54:00.002+08:00

剩下我们坐在岸边
看着她越走越远
白色星星迎着海面
沙滩遥远

而她的心
去了哪里
我们都无能为力
是谁的手能牵她回来

Does she know
Don't think so
爱上了同一个遗憾
恍然明白那时候
为何要对彼此为难

Tell me she knows
(Cause) I don't think so
我们都不属于她的爱
不能重来的伤害
而我们都学会了释怀

两个朋友一个最爱
不可能有的未来
只是结局却让我们如此意外

她的决定终于太慢
看那玩笑的安排
你怪谁的错（谁的错）
我们都 (我们都) 失败

The festive spirit fills the air!

2010-02-11T17:15:00.003+08:00

Somehow, I'm excited and looking forward to Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day. Besides all the visitation, going to Malaysia and catching up with relatives, I also want to make full use of these few days to plan and research on the new business that I'm about to set up. I’m totally excited as I have seen how others succeed, thus I know I can do it too!

Also, this is the period where many will go all out to feast and enjoy, but I’m determined to spend this holiday staying fit. I will be watching my diet, not to be a spoilsport to turn away every food offer, but I will be in control and not overfeed myself. Also, I will be spending time to do exercise whenever I can.

On a side note, I wish everyone a very joyous Chinese New Year, and a romance-filled Valentine’s Day! :)

I miss my parachute bear!

2010-02-08T16:51:00.010+08:00

I went to Marina Barrage with my cute, powerful and strong parachute bear kite that TS gave to me a few weeks ago. This is my very first kite and it meant a lot to me.

For the very first time, on my own, I set up the kite, launch it, and was very excited to see it fly. :)

However, this did not last long. The wind was insufficient at that point of time to keep my bear up in the sky. In just seconds, my bear fall at such a high-speed that I did not managed to recoil the string back in time. It falls straight into the fountain and trapped in between the gap of the glass railings. We spent 2 hrs trying to retrieve it but to no avail. Eventually, we left Marina Barrage feeling really bad without my bear.

I called up the info counter early the next morning to make a report. They say they will contact me if they retrieve my kite, but up till now, there’s no news from them. My Sis went back to the fountain in the afternoon, but my bear could no longer be found... If someone has taken it, I really hope that the person will treasure it as much as I do.

My only and last photo of my parachute bear flying.

My parachute bear stuck in between the gap of the glass railings at the fountain of Marina Barrage.

Lesson learned: I must not be too over confident to think that I will never lose the things that are very precious to me. I need to treasure them.

To my dear bear, I'm sorry that I failed to treasure you. You are dearly missed. No other can ever replace you in my heart...

想念不能承认, 回忆是最可怕的敌人.

2010-02-03T10:56:00.001+08:00

心疼的玫瑰　半夜还开着　找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到现场却已来不及　等待任何回音都不可得

微弱的风筝　冬天裡飘着　回不去手中缠线的那个
没有蓝天　又何必去飞　怎麽适合

黑色笑靥掉了　雪白眼泪掉了　该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色　结了冰的长河　回忆是最可怕的敌人

故事情节掉了　主角对白掉了　该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐　断了翅的白鸽　不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾经唱过的歌　分享过的笑声　在心中不断拉扯
想念不能承认　偷偷擦去泪痕　冬天过了还是会很冷

Thank you for being there for me

2010-01-26T12:35:00.007+08:00

To all who have been dropping by and reading my blog, I just want to say a heartfelt thank you for your care and concern. I may not know who you are, but thanks for being there for me all these while. Sorry that I have to lock up my blog as I was using it to rant and let out my feelings, when there is no one whom I could really talk to, or rather, I do not want to affect others around me.

My life hit an all-time low over the last one month, but at the end of the road, what doesn't break me only makes me stronger. Of course there will still be problems to solve, thoughts to overcome, and things to work on, but I know I can do it because I have a God who is bigger and greater than life itself.

My worth is in Him. He loves me for who I am, and not what others want me to be. There is only one Gina and no other that He laid down His life for. People can disappoint us, but He loves us too much to let us down. The joy that He puts back in my heart no longer depends on what other people say or do.

I remember Pastor Lia once told me that she sees in me a resistance, a tough heart, and I will always bounce back when life pushes me down. This is so true! I'm the kind who will fight till the end.

Great future awaits me, in every new dawn. I will seize the day, and bring it a step closer towards my destiny.

My 2010

2010-01-04T12:36:00.005+08:00

This is my 1st post in 2010, and I just want to say that I'm really looking forward to 2010, to make the best out of it!

2009 have been a long year for me, with so many things that happened. Good things, but mostly bad things. I learnt how to be strong in the process, and indeed bad things happened just so that I will learnt and grow. To all my bad experiences, I have left you behind in 2009. I’ve moved on.

Yes, I’m turning 24 this year. Honestly I have many self-imposed anxiety in my heart as the days passed by so quickly. Things that my mum and sis always bugged me with: "Any boyfriend?", "when do you plan to get married?”,"I want to intro this person to you, that person to you...” lol. They are making me anxious, and I got to keep reminding myself that my future is secure in the hands of my 100% good God. And I got to choose wisely!

I’ve also realized that I have been thinking too much recently. Yes, too much, I must say.
Gina, you got to think lesser and keep things simple. With too many thoughts swimming in your head, it will really affect your moods.

I missed those days where I felt carefree in my heart and mind, letting no one and nothing to affect my emotion. Thus, I have decided to go back to those days, with a heart filled with faith and HS, having the unexplained joy in my heart every day. If you have been letting someone or something affect your emotion, I know how you feel! It only takes 1 decision to move on. You can choose happiness over sadness in every situation.

2009-12-28T11:47:00.034+08:00

Took many pics over the long weekend, and here are just some of the many random pics i love..

Samuel's version

My Sentosa's Collection

Can't get enough of it? View more on my fb. Lol.

2009-12-21T16:35:00.002+08:00

Lol. I got this post from a friend's blog. And I agree to it totally.

59th birthday

2009-12-15T10:18:00.003+08:00

My mum and I celebrated my dad's 59th birthday at 12 midnight. I brought him a nice little chocolate cake, topped with cream, grapes, strawberries and delicious chocolate music notes.

He is a wonderful dad, and I counted myself bless every time when I see some of my friends having absent father in their families. He is faithful to my mum, and took care of us to the best that he can. Though he has his weak points, but his strong points are definitely 10 times more than the weak.

Seeing his lips covered with cream and his smile, I can’t help but felt a warm and sweetness in my heart. “God, bless this man”, I prayed.

When I do not see His hand, I will learn to trust His heart

2009-11-30T18:03:00.005+08:00

I was reading Pst Kong blog and the following really hits my heart.

"Understand that God is seeking to make you better. God is more interested in our character than our comfort. He is a very purposeful God and never arbitrary in His treatment concerning us. That is why when we do not see His hand, we must learn to trust His heart. If not, we will become confused, resentful and bitter. That is precisely why we need faith in our walk with Him. The silence of God will make you wonder if He even cares, but He does. The silence of God will make you wonder if He is even there, but He is. Faith is never for the good times, it is always for the difficult times."

“For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain” (Phil. 1:21)

Romans 5:3-4 says that “we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope.”

Obedient endurance is the crowning mark of maturity.

2009-11-23T17:01:00.002+08:00

Just wanna say that you've made my day!

很旅行的愛情 ~ 袁詠琳

愛是一場越過天際落向永恒的旅行
原來一切只是美麗當我終於明白我愛你
薰衣草田的夏季每段小徑都很甜蜜
北方撿拾楓葉的那片森林連松果落地時都在開心

天氣很晴你是一行蔚藍色的詩句
湖泊很靜而我學著朗讀無處不在的愛情

比利時的黑巧克力餘韻不如你
葡萄莊園裡的香檳清澈不及你
古典鋼琴彈不出你微笑時的聲音
愛你才是我最重要的旅行

山腰蜿蜒的小徑餘韻不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是這個世界旅行中最美的風景

最美最美的最美的Baby~

於是沙漠於是靜默就像我們不說話的時候
於是冰丘於是心暖和就像我們牽著手的時候

天氣很晴你是一行蔚藍色的詩句
水流很輕我的思緒永遠在最愛你的距離

比利時的黑巧克力餘韻不如你
葡萄莊園裡的香檳清澈不及你
古典鋼琴彈不出你微笑時的聲音
愛你才是我最重要的旅行

山腰蜿蜒的小徑餘韻不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是這個世界旅行中最美的風景

(這愛情)比利時的黑巧克力餘韻不如你
葡萄莊園裡的香檳清澈不及你
古典鋼琴彈不出你微笑時的聲音
愛你才是我最重要的旅行

山腰蜿蜒的小徑餘韻不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是這個世界旅行中最美的風景

2009-11-20T10:06:00.008+08:00

I had some fun at work yesterday. The aircon was freezing cold at 14 degree and I decided to put on my oversized snow mittens:

Thanks to beta, I ended up taking many pics with my mittens on. Really lovin' it! Sometime its moment like this where we let our hair down and have some good laugh, as she "decorate" me with all the scarf and accessories.

I was packing my wallet later in the night and found a pair of movie tickets. Just like a flash back movie, many fond memories came to my mind. Really hope that you are happy and well. I would be a liar if I say I don't miss you at all. Wonder if you miss me?

My bestest friend

2009-11-05T13:13:00.004+08:00

I'm really looking forward to the hangout later. It has been so long since I last saw my bestest friend. So gonna give her a big big hug later. :)

urban dictionary definition: bestest - "the best of the best, Better than best"

Black or White

2009-11-04T18:50:00.004+08:00

Did a mini revamp on my blog today. I’m in love with black & white, not that I'm a sadist with no colors in life. But black & white is me. Either a 'Yes' or a 'No', there is no in between, no grey area.

"Jesus says, "But let your ‘Yes' be ‘Yes,' and your ‘No,' ‘No.' For whatever is more than these is from the evil one." - Matthew 5:37

I'm back!

2009-11-03T18:58:00.005+08:00

Hey! I'm back blogging again. I have been composing this post for the past 1 month but have yet to complete to publish it. LOL

Here are some random updates:
The past 2 months have been busy x3. Though it was busy, I have learnt so much in the process, like how to deal with people twice my age, and gaining respect by showing it first. Who say young people cannot do great things? We can make a difference in the marketplace truly by God's grace and wisdom.

As time passed, I find myself slowly letting go. The feelings had slowly fade away. But you have definitely set a benchmark so high that who you are will be exactly what I will look for in the future. For those who know, you will know what I mean. ;)

During the past 2 months, I have a clearer vision of my future, what I will be doing and how to get there. It's like a blue print given by God. Like what Pst Lia shared last weekend, what you see on the inside of you will happen in reality. I'm pregnant with the vision inside, so real that nothing can deny it.

"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man, the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." - 1 Cor 2:9

Finally, it's all over. It's time to let go.

2009-08-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

In need of motivation to move on

2009-08-19T10:26:00.000+08:00

Your mercy towards me, showed me how to show mercy to others

2009-08-17T10:16:00.005+08:00

Really thank Pastor How & Pastor Lia, that even though they are in Gold Coast now, they prepared a video sermon for us way earlier, so that we can still be fed on the word of God over the weekend.

Pastor How shared about the 6 areas in our lives that we need to grow BIGGER in, if we want to enlarge our hearts.

1) Master
2) Mission
3) Mate
4) Morals
5) Money
6) Mercy

As for me,

1) Master - I have found my master, but I need to give God my 100% obedience, that whatever He says I will do. Sometimes I will debate with God, and have doubts. But, I will work on giving Him my 100% obedience.
2) Mission - God has showed me the call He has on my life many years ago. I will hold on to it no matter what.
3) Mate - with that mission, I have a clearer picture on whom to choose to spend the rest of my life with. However, just feel that it's not now, so got to be patience, as patience will yield the 'right' person.
4) Morals - To be consistent, that is having the integrity (consistency) in my heart, to be the same person wherever I go, and not to defile myself.
5) Money - Generous with God and people.
6) Mercy - To show love to people who is undeserved of it. Just as Christ has showed me His mercy, I will learn to show others the same too.

Mercy - Parachute Band

Here I am a sinner
Broken and in need of you
Take my life and wash my fear away
For you are the great I am
Rest assure I feel your hand
Holding me until the darkness clears

Father to the fatherless
Redeemer of my soul
My life is yours forever
My heart will always know

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me called me as your own

Here I am a sinner
Broken and in need of you
Take my life and wash my fear away
For you are the great I am
Rest assure I feel your hand
Holding me until the darkness clears

Father to the fatherless
Redeemer of my soul
My life is yours forever
My heart will always know

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me called me as your own

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me called me as your own

Hati Hamba

2009-08-11T15:15:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was a great one. We celebrated Eugene's birthday, and hangout in church for the morning CHC prayer meeting, when Samuel taught me the song "Servant Heart" in Bahasa Indonesia. Even though it was already 4am in the morning, the presence of God was so strong, and I can just feel the anointing of God with us when he plays on the guitar. We went through the lyrics word-for-word and he really knows how to pronounce every single word! Thank you Samuel! :)

Going to have an amazing worship session in Bahasa Indonesia soon! I’m looking forward to it.

Hati Hamba

Ku Tak Dapat Lupakan
Kebaikan Yang Ku T'rima
Pengorbanan-Mu Yang Mulia
Jadikan Ku Berharga

Kau Tulus Menerima
Aku Apa Adanya
Kekuatan Kasih-Mu Nyata
Memulihkan Hidupku

Kau Bukan Tuhan Yang Melihat Rupa
Kau Bukan Tuhan Yang Memandang Harta
Hati Hamba Yang S'lalu Kau Cari
Biar Kau Temukan Di Dalamku

S'lama Ku Hidup Ku Mau Menyembah-Mu
S'bab Engkau Sangat Berarti Bagiku
Yang Terbaik Yang Ada Padaku
Kupersembahkan Kepada-Mu

Yesusku

All of my life, in every season, God, You are still God

2009-08-06T12:24:00.004+08:00

This song really encourages me. I heard this song yesterday after Zone G service, at the worship rehearsal with Pastor Lia. The lyrics and the presence of God touched me.

Yes, I'm walking through the desert in my life now. Everything is dry, and I'm a little discouraged because no fruit was seen despite all the sowing. Everything seems like a standstill, no breakthrough, nothing.

But one thing I know, all of my life, in every season, God, You are still God. The fruits are going to come.

Desert Song by Hillsongs

This is my prayer in my desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life, in every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in my harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

Wake up gina! _

2009-08-04T11:50:00.003+08:00

It's has been a few days since I last blogged.

Last weekend was a great one, but also a tiring one. Celebrated Alex's birthday at Kbox Cineleisure on Friday night after FOP, and went straight to church for morning bookstore meeting, together with Yun and Law, and later stayed for combined service. It was quite an experience of not sleeping for almost 42 hours. Lol...

My heart is still young, but my age seems to have caught up with me after that 42 hours. I slept at around 12am on Sat, and wake up only at 12.30pm on Sunday!

After the long sleep, I went for usher duty at FOP. It was my 1st official usher duty and I'm super excited and look forward to it. It was really a learning experience. I was attached to CHC team and really learn a lot in terms of serving people, the art of filling up seats, section by section, and taking care of my assigned 'zone' during offering. :)
I met many different Christians during FOP as well. Some are just so different, but nonetheless, what matters is we serve the same God, hopefully.

I slept at 1am on Sunday, and woke up on Monday with a headache. As for today, I woke up feeling giddy.

This "lack of sleep" feeling has been there since Sat!

Indeed our sleep bank will demand us for payment if we loan too much time from it. I hope to finish re-paying soon...

Wake up gina! *_*, and stay awake!

I love Hacks

2009-07-30T16:07:00.004+08:00

Woke up this morning with running nose, cough and phlegm.. These are symptoms that are similar to h1n1's symptoms. I was a little worried at first as I know I can't afford to fall ill, and I'm afraid that I will spread to others.

Nonetheless, I felt better now. Though I am still a little breathless and have occasional cough & running nose. Lol.

Just want to say a special thank you to all my friends who twitted me. Yes, I will drink more water and take care of myself. :)

Also, I keep eating Hacks Sweets (Regular). It's one of my secret formula in keeping sickness away from me. Every time when I have the "feeling", I will take Hacks, and indeed I felt better.

Farmville also helped. Every time when I see the beautiful farm and lovely animals, I felt better. Yea, indeed, FB rocks!

I shall get well soon!

A discerning heart

2009-07-29T13:53:00.003+08:00

This has been my prayer since yesterday:

"Lord, increase my heart towards people, and at the same time, give me a discerning heart, that I will have the heart that discerns the acts, the speech and the spirit of people, and all things will be so crystal clear. God, reveal to me all the hidden things so that I can be more effective as Your worker."

And discernment only comes from the Holy Spirit.

I need to dwell in His presence even more and "hangout" with Him. This is what I will work on for this week. :)

FarmVille

2009-07-27T12:07:00.006+08:00

I was inspired and in awe today when I see the crops and trees with lovely fruits growing healthy in my farm, ready for harvest!

And for a moment, a thought just struck me, that a few days ago, I was just doing my plowing and sowing, and though it seems like nothing is happening, but the seeds is growing, silently, underneath the earth.

Isn't this the same as reaching out, plowing into people's life, and sowing seeds of truth in them?

I know that it will not be an instant process, but I just got to keep doing, keep plowing, and one day, the harvest is going to be beautiful!

A snap shot of my expanded farm after the harvest:

More room for growth!

Stand

2009-07-27T10:45:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's service was a life-changing one.

Pastor Lia shared about the 3 important things that we need to have in our life, in order to stand, till the end of the journey, and end it well.

1) Don't lose heart

2) Don't lose purity

3) Don't lose focus

In Acts 20: 24, Paul says: "But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God."

Fellowship of the Unashamed
I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slowdown, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense,and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised,regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won't give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I've preached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.
And when He comes to get His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My colors will be clear for "I am not ashamed of the Gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes.." (Romans 1:16)

Every single word hit my heart, I felt a new faith rising up, and a new strength to keep on standing. Nothing is going to move me. I will not lose heart, I will not lose my purity, I will not lose focus. I will STAND, till my last breath.

Gonna read more!

2009-07-20T13:03:00.003+08:00

Just brought a new book - Spiritual Leadership for the new millennium, by Dr.Cho Yonggi from bookstore! I want to learn more and grow :)

Yesterday was my first official duty at generation bookstore. I was looking forward to it as it's my passion to serve in the bookstore. Simply love books and CDs, and serving people, to get for them what they want. Looking forward to more duties and opportunities to make a difference in someone's life through bookstore ministry!

Glad to know Lucy and Arwin yesterday too!! also Nat, Oliver, Mike and Yansen!!! Miss you guys muchie.

Simply love Indonesia and all my friends from Indo.:)

Yuying Sec

2009-07-13T12:40:00.003+08:00

Simply love all of you from Yuying Sec! It has been less than 2 months since the revivial started in Yuying Sec.

Syu Lynn, Zach, Swee Hong, Joelson, Terrance, Thng Xuan, Keng Hoe

Yuying Sec 2009 @ Heart of God Church

It all started with one young man, Joelson, whose heart was turned to Jesus at the lowest point of his life, and a decision to come back to church.

With a new found life, he can't help but started to reach out to all his friends in Yuying sec. People like Terrance, Thng Xuan, Jing Ling, Zach, Swee Hong, Long Jie, Jian Kang, Brain, Kelvin, Jasmine, Joanne, Syu Lynn, Derrick, Keng Hoe, Geraldine, Celine and many more to come.

And I'm really proud to be in G3.

Truly, God is able to use us to reach the next generation. It's never too old to take the schools for Christ!

Raise up a generation of people who are willing to give God the best years of their lives, and God will use this generation to impact all levels of society and all walks of life!

A milestone in HoGc, a milestone in my life

2009-07-13T11:52:00.002+08:00

My life just went up another level over the weekend. This weekend have been a milestone in HoGc, and a milestone in my life.

On Friday night, I was impacted by what Dr AR Bernard shared, being relevant to the world we live in, for greater is He who is in us, then in the world, therefore, go, and be relevant to the world, to love people, and to be outward looking, to live for others.

And on Saturday, I was impacted by what Pst How shared, no limitation. For the whole of last week, I was thinking of how to maintain the growth in G3, instead of obtaining new grounds. And during service, Pst How shared that as leaders, we should not be happy with just maintaining, but obtaining, and God speaks to me so vividly that, "why not maintain, but at the same time, obtain? We can do both at the same time."

It really challenges me to raise my thinking, and to think big, not to limit myself with a small mindset.

Happy but never satisfied.

And yesterday, the video of Dr AR Bernard really touches me, of how far we have came, and how Pst Lia & Pst How really build our church in the spirit.

Dr AR Bernard shared that Success is made up of 10% visible and 90% invisible. I was challenged to keep on plouging and sowing my life into people's lives, and keep working on my character to be more Christ-like.

All these laid a solid foundation for the next phrase of growth in my life. Now is the time!

Wedding Plans

2009-07-09T11:11:00.003+08:00

Just complete a wedding plan on FB. Hahah.. Quite interesting.

1. How old are you?
23. I hope it stay this way forever :P

2. Are you single?
Yes. Very single :P

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
26

4. Do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
Who?

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
Jay Chou :P

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
Hui Yun will be my bridesmaid. As for best man, my hubby decide?

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
ROM will be outdoor settings. Thinking of the restuarant opp Istana House @ Dhoby Ghuat. Wedding will be at hotel. Most probably Ritz or Swissotel? Cinderalla style, with white banquet chair, and golden ribbons?

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
Taiwan

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Pastors, G & E zone, relatives and friends

10. Will that include your exes?
Yes. depends whether they want to come?

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
Hmm.. not a cake fanatic, nice ones will do.

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
ROM - Morning, Wedding - Evening

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
Would like to play "In love with you" by Jacky Cheung & Regine. * Subject to change 3 years later. :p

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon,fork and knife?
Fine dining.

15. Champagne or red wine?
Both.

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Right after :)

17. Money or household items?
Both.

18. How many kids would you like to have?
2. Baby boy & girl.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
Yes!

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
Hahha.. hmmm.. G zone will have many weddings. too many to tag. But if you are tagged, you are the one!

Lifesong - My life, Your song

2009-07-08T10:50:00.002+08:00

Empty hands held high
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You

To see lives changed for eternity - 40 this week!

2009-07-07T11:24:00.003+08:00

Buzz & excitement is in the air! HoGc broke through a total of 1021 youths last weekend! More than just the numbers, I'm really excited about the lives impacted and changed, destiny re-written and purpose found.

God, I'm amazed at the work that you have called us to do in this church, and in each CG. We are at the tipping point. It's really exciting!

More than just living for ourselves, but living for others. Nothing beats seeing lives changed, 1 at a time.

Really love G3, every single one who make up the whole Cg. G3 is a unique Cg, even though everyone is different, but we are inclusive and we love and care for one another. We are going to break through 40 this week. We are ready. :)

A beautiful song by 苏打绿 - 交响梦 :)

2009-07-03T15:21:00.002+08:00

午后时分睡得很沉
嘈杂鸟儿也全都充耳不闻
行板如歌歌里在等
等你来和和一篇雨季解渴
雷声铺陈嘹亮地哼
大地与河万物屏息这一刻

蛰睡了一世纪的下午被你惊醒
迷雾从身后穿起扣成水滴
透明的伤口漂亮的残忍藏到土壤里
雨的铿锵临盆比梦的合奏还静
阡陌牧车因你饶舌
雷声如灯敲开了一年兴奋
急板成歌歌落成河
河在狂奔奔击了干涸混沌

埋伏了一整季的思念被你剥离
棉絮爬上了头发换算年龄
气候的成长季风的回忆收进课本里
我自己来缝补我自己
修剪自己迎接你淋湿我风干的心
雨停时分洗澈烟尘
新的花梗正期待炫耀颜色
黄昏人们敞开了家里大门

宁静很深世界迎接你这一刻生命来了

A song that so represents my heart..

2009-07-02T13:01:00.002+08:00

Standing in awe of your grace
Setting my feet in your ways
Entering into your presence
To behold you face to face

God of all heaven and earth
Holding me in your embrace
Unfailing love that surrounds me
Oh… God I stand amazed

My Jesus, my Lord
You’re the love of my life
Wherever you go
Wanna be by your side
No longer I But Christ living in me
Serving you for all eternity

My eyes set on You In this race that I run
No longer my ways
Let Your will be done
Make me a servant, my heart's ever true
Clinging to the cross
I’ll follow You
I’ll follow You

Mixed feelings

2009-06-29T18:36:00.002+08:00

I'm having mixed feelings. Saw the weakness in friendship, and how it breaks so easily.

Truly, only the relationship I have with Jesus will last forever.

The ethos of our church - Others!

2009-06-29T17:20:00.004+08:00

Pastor Joakim shared a heart-tugging sermon on the Empress of Ireland yesterday, about how a group of 120 salvation army's youth sacrifice their lives so that others, who have yet known Jesus will get a chance to live.

This is the second time I hear this sermon but I was re-inspired to live a life for others.

To remind myself always to be other-centred, I designed a wallpaper :)

I've replied

2009-06-26T18:13:00.002+08:00

Just replied to one of the hardest email I ever had in my life. :)

Think BIG

2009-06-25T18:20:00.007+08:00

Visited Louis Vuitton Website today and really like the way they design their ads. Below are some of my favourite screen shots.

There's a difference between luxury brands and normal brands. Luxury brands carried themselves well and they think big. Nothing is too difficult, and the sky is the limit. I'm challenged to think bigger and dream bigger!

Why not dream of owning a private jet? Why not live in the heart of the city? At the same time, serving God and Pastors, not compromising to the standards of the world, but living a life with God's favour and blessing. God is a big God, as long as we can dream it, God is way able to.

The bible says: 20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, - Ephesians 3:20.

Time to get out of my small 'boxed world' to think BIG. (:

2009-06-24T10:22:00.002+08:00

My blogskin has been removed by the designer!
Right now, I'm in the midst of sourcing for a new blogskin. Meanwhile, I really like this black and cool looking skin. Some people may think that it look so simple, but isn't being simple better?

2009-06-19T17:49:00.002+08:00

My song of the season

Glory to God

Heaven and Earth bow down
Such wonder graces from Your throne
The angels stand in awe
Declaring Your praise forevermore

You are my God
You alone so worthy

Glory to God in the highest forever
High and lifted up
Heaven and Earth bow before You
My Lord

You are my God
You alone so worthy
Of all my heart can give
Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess

Glory to God
My Lord

2009-06-19T15:15:00.002+08:00

God, I need peace in my heart about this. perhaps it's just time to go?

2009-06-18T09:28:00.021+08:00

Just had a great and awesome Beyond camp at Orientus Resort!! It's increditable! love the hangouts, and the resort is really awesome. Felt so close to nature, counting stars.

The air there seems a little fresher as well!

Day 1
I took leave on Day 1, and it's simply fun. Love the photo hunt, where we explore the whole camp site's surrounding, to spot the actual, according to the photo taken. My team works together and had lots of fun spotting, taking, laughing, running.

Did forfiet during the ice breaker. It's so fun dancing "Nobody nobody but you.. i wanna nobody nobody but you..." by our "famous by now" - Wonder G! Esmonde lead us in the dance. He rocks la.

Did another forfeit and wrote "HEART OF GOD CHURCH" with our butts. hahah, it's so funny..

More than just fun, Service on Day 1 impacted me greatly. Garrett share with us the heart of Pastor How and Pastor Lia, and how they are just like King David, wanted to build God a house, and laid the foundations for the work, but it shouldn't end there, because Solomon was the one who completed the house of God.

Solomon live the dream of David, and took ownership of that dream. King David have many sons, but why is Solomon chosen? It's because he place his father's dream above his own dream, and with all his heart, took ownership.

I'm challenged and decided that I will live the dream of Pastor Lia and Pastor How, to raise up the foundations of many generations, loving the youth, and to build a prototype church, to impact the society and the nations, and to be a spiritual daughter of Pastors, taking ownership of my church financially, building atmosphere, pulling down the presence of God, and taking care of people, serving in ministries.

Ended the day hanging out at the swimming pool with becky, samuel, ai zhen, yun, alex, terrance & eugene at 2.30am.

Shower & Slept at 3.30am

Day 2
Wake up at 6.20am to prepare to go to work, and to catch the morning breakfast at 7am. Met Smauel, becky and hui yun for breakfast. Though the food tasted below average, it's a great time to eat together.

Had a busy and "easily distracted" day at work, felt feverish and drank 2 cups of black coffee to no avail.

I was so worried that I couldn't make it through the service with Pst Troy Marshall, and kept praying throughout the day that God will speak to me during the service, and that I will not miss out on God.

And indeed, God answered my prayers! Pst Troy started the service with a prophetic word, encouraging us to hold on to the vision that God has given, that do not be distracted by man, but keep our focus on God. Wow! It reassured me on all the vision God has showed me before and that it shall all come to pass!

Pst Troy also prayed for a refreshing fire to come upon me. Yes, that's what I need. Refuel!

The "feverish" feeling left me too!

Travelled back to resort at 11.30pm, and took a nap on bus. And short naps really works! I felt so energentic for the rest of the night! Had dinner at 1.30am, and together with samuel, becky, yun, nina, ai zhen, terrance, we go around making ppl laugh, knocking on their doors and dance nobody, banana dance, hogc with butts etc. Haha..

After "clearing" most rooms, we went back to the swimming pool, and watch the starry night sky. I always love stars and am so excited when I see them. Left at around 3.30am, and we hangout in Jackson's room before going back to sleep at 4am.

Day 3
Kenneth and Miaow was so funny. They stood outside my room door at 6.30am, wanted to wake me up. Am really touched as they just wanna make sure that I am not be late for work.

Had breakfast with samuel, hao, jackson, becky and many others before travelling to work, which I am currently at now. Haha.

It has been an awesome 3 days for me. Felt refreshed in the spirit, re-aligned my dreams and vision, and enjoyed great fellowship with the coolest people on earth.

Love,

gina

2009-06-06T01:24:00.001+08:00

feels really good as I've complete all that I need to do!!!!

going home from office now.

look forward to next week! :)

signing off,
gina

2009-06-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

Today have been a long day! But, somehow, I think I've got back the sparkle and the passion to go on. Encouraged by some of the conversation I had and also through God. Have been praying short prayers and talk to God throughout the day, and He encourage me to go on, and somehow, I feel the strength coming back.

Clearing my work now in the office. Plan to stay late to finish all that's outstanding as I'll be on leave on Monday, for my sis's ROM!

Looking forward to next week! It will be a week full of buzz and excitement.

2009-06-05T10:34:00.001+08:00

Feel really tired this morning. Need a new passion to wake up every morning. Is it time to move on?

2009-06-04T21:44:00.002+08:00

These 2 days have been really busy for me. Multi-tasking almost every minute in the office. Many things are "chasing" after me, and I know I need to increase in capacity.

Really miss Shu Hui. Thought of her today. How have you been?

Meeting Elaine this Sat for lunch! Really look forward to it.

Also, wanna say a happy belated birthday to Garrett! Thank you for always being there for me all these years. You are my source of encouragement and inspiration. Thank you :)

Still in office now.. going back real soon I hope. Haha.

Signing off,
gina

2009-06-02T17:04:00.002+08:00

My sister brought a very lovely dress for her ROM yesterday! :)

Today have been a busy day for me.. there is so much things to accomplish, yet so little time.. still have things that are outstanding. Target to finish em' all tomorrow.
Looking forward to the days coming up. It's going to be an action-packed week.

Signing off! Going to see doc, and pick up medicines.

2009-06-01T17:55:00.004+08:00

My day was a little grey today..

had insomnia last night.. it was just those rare nights where I simply can't fall asleep, and my mind seems very conscious.
Trying to survive today with 40 min of "sleep", and it requires lots of will-power.. haha. But glad that I manage to stay awake throughout my work.

My hp died with smses stucked in it's outbox, that was never sent out.. Re started it twice but still didn't help.. It's time for it to meet it's maker. Bringing it for servicing one of these day.

Meeting my mum and sis in a while's time to shop for my sis's ROM dress. Very excited and look forward to the ceremony on 080609.

Wishing my sis a blissful marriage! :)

2009-05-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

Just like the opening entries of many bloggers - This is the first post!

I'm so excited about this new blog, where you can get to know me better.

Today is a normal day for me, started with work and lunch with my dear colleague. The highlight of my day will be reading blogs and facebook of friends whom I cared alot about. :) and twitter rocks!!