Finally, it's all over. It's time to let go.

In need of motivation to move on

Your mercy towards me, showed me how to show mercy to others

Really thank Pastor How & Pastor Lia, that even though they are in Gold Coast now, they prepared a video sermon for us way earlier, so that we can still be fed on the word of God over the weekend.

Pastor How shared about the 6 areas in our lives that we need to grow BIGGER in, if we want to enlarge our hearts.

1) Master
2) Mission
3) Mate
4) Morals
5) Money
6) Mercy

As for me,

1) Master - I have found my master, but I need to give God my 100% obedience, that whatever He says I will do. Sometimes I will debate with God, and have doubts. But, I will work on giving Him my 100% obedience.
2) Mission - God has showed me the call He has on my life many years ago. I will hold on to it no matter what.
3) Mate - with that mission, I have a clearer picture on whom to choose to spend the rest of my life with. However, just feel that it's not now, so got to be patience, as patience will yield the 'right' person.
4) Morals - To be consistent, that is having the integrity (consistency) in my heart, to be the same person wherever I go, and not to defile myself.
5) Money - Generous with God and people.
6) Mercy - To show love to people who is undeserved of it. Just as Christ has showed me His mercy, I will learn to show others the same too.

Mercy - Parachute Band

Here I am a sinner
Broken and in need of you
Take my life and wash my fear away
For you are the great I am
Rest assure I feel your hand
Holding me until the darkness clears

Father to the fatherless
Redeemer of my soul
My life is yours forever
My heart will always know

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me called me as your own

Here I am a sinner
Broken and in need of you
Take my life and wash my fear away
For you are the great I am
Rest assure I feel your hand
Holding me until the darkness clears

Father to the fatherless
Redeemer of my soul
My life is yours forever
My heart will always know

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me called me as your own

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me called me as your own

Hati Hamba

Yesterday was a great one. We celebrated Eugene's birthday, and hangout in church for the morning CHC prayer meeting, when Samuel taught me the song "Servant Heart" in Bahasa Indonesia. Even though it was already 4am in the morning, the presence of God was so strong, and I can just feel the anointing of God with us when he plays on the guitar. We went through the lyrics word-for-word and he really knows how to pronounce every single word! Thank you Samuel! :)

Going to have an amazing worship session in Bahasa Indonesia soon! I’m looking forward to it.

Hati Hamba

Ku Tak Dapat Lupakan
Kebaikan Yang Ku T'rima
Pengorbanan-Mu Yang Mulia
Jadikan Ku Berharga

Kau Tulus Menerima
Aku Apa Adanya
Kekuatan Kasih-Mu Nyata
Memulihkan Hidupku

Kau Bukan Tuhan Yang Melihat Rupa
Kau Bukan Tuhan Yang Memandang Harta
Hati Hamba Yang S'lalu Kau Cari
Biar Kau Temukan Di Dalamku

S'lama Ku Hidup Ku Mau Menyembah-Mu
S'bab Engkau Sangat Berarti Bagiku
Yang Terbaik Yang Ada Padaku
Kupersembahkan Kepada-Mu

Yesusku

All of my life, in every season, God, You are still God

This song really encourages me. I heard this song yesterday after Zone G service, at the worship rehearsal with Pastor Lia. The lyrics and the presence of God touched me.

Yes, I'm walking through the desert in my life now. Everything is dry, and I'm a little discouraged because no fruit was seen despite all the sowing. Everything seems like a standstill, no breakthrough, nothing.

But one thing I know, all of my life, in every season, God, You are still God. The fruits are going to come.

Desert Song by Hillsongs

This is my prayer in my desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life, in every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in my harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

Wake up gina! *_*

It's has been a few days since I last blogged.

Last weekend was a great one, but also a tiring one. Celebrated Alex's birthday at Kbox Cineleisure on Friday night after FOP, and went straight to church for morning bookstore meeting, together with Yun and Law, and later stayed for combined service. It was quite an experience of not sleeping for almost 42 hours. Lol...

My heart is still young, but my age seems to have caught up with me after that 42 hours. I slept at around 12am on Sat, and wake up only at 12.30pm on Sunday!

After the long sleep, I went for usher duty at FOP. It was my 1st official usher duty and I'm super excited and look forward to it. It was really a learning experience. I was attached to CHC team and really learn a lot in terms of serving people, the art of filling up seats, section by section, and taking care of my assigned 'zone' during offering. :)
I met many different Christians during FOP as well. Some are just so different, but nonetheless, what matters is we serve the same God, hopefully.

I slept at 1am on Sunday, and woke up on Monday with a headache. As for today, I woke up feeling giddy.

This "lack of sleep" feeling has been there since Sat!

Indeed our sleep bank will demand us for payment if we loan too much time from it. I hope to finish re-paying soon...

Wake up gina! *_*, and stay awake!